strange

i was battling through traffic one day when it suddenly hit me hard: i missed my husband.

isn’t that just sad? you keep replaying the best moment you had; the tease, the fight, the talk, the annoyance but it’s been too long since i had a physical connection that i now feel… strange. like, everything is all in a distant memory.

when you can’t remember your husband’s touch, his smell, his voice… it’s like, how i am remembering my late brother. you remembered his face, but the memory has become fuzzy.

i’m just glad i made the decision to follow him because you know what, i don’t think i can take another month of this.

for those seafarers’ wives, Field Engineers, or whatever jobs that force a couple to live separately for extended periods, you have my utmost respect and i salute you! it’s only been 2 months and i think i’m going crazy… T____T

the text, the phone calls, the video calls cannot replace the physical relationship. i long to have someone i can crash to after a long day at work, or going food hunting, looking for that food you crave.

this is hard.