Hello!

I missed quite a few entries since my last. I’ve been rather busy with DH around. Plus, i was down with fever for the last couple of days.

Had a real bad sore throat at first (one that woke me up every hour just to cough). My gynae only prescribed me with medicated strepsils; didn’t work.

First, with my pregnancy. It was quite a scare when the first u/s had not been what i expected. Using my own calculations, i expected myself to be around 6 weeks. Imagined my disappointment when the gynae told me, in her solemn voice, that it was way, way too small. The scan machine can’t even date the sac!

We did UPT again (weak positive, but i had 3 toilet breaks before that so i guess it was expected?) and a blood test to determine my hcg levels.

I had 2 days of light, pinkish spotting before the appointment so i was pretty down knowing that this might not happen again.

This gynae wanted me warded, bed rest. I didn’t informed my parents that i went for a checkup and i’ve been texting with DH giving him the updates.

I was crying too. I’ve lost count how many times i have cried in that hall way. Not a pretty memory.

Funnily enough, when i thought i was waiting to be assigned a bed, i was called in by another gynae.

Wanted case? Haha.

This gynae had a different outlook. She got me 2 hormones jab (1 for hcg, another for i can’t recall) and prescribed me with duphaston.

I came out of that room feeling a little bit better and i didn’t have to be warded. But i imposed bed rest for myself. Hehe.

I had another checkup the week after. This time, alhamdulillah, the sac’s got bigger (measuring 4w1d) and my blood test last week came out in my favour (hcg level at 564; around 3 weeks).

I was seen by the first gynae. She injected me with an oil-based hcg hormones and reduced my duphaston intake as well.

The next checkup will be in 2 weeks. If i were to be seen by the other gynae, i would have a weekly checkups and weekly hormone jabs. Different doctors have different styles

It will be a huge milestone, the next checkup. It’ll be on our 8 weeks. I’ve never passed 8 weeks before. Well, successfully at least.

I lost my first pregnancy at around 8-9 weeks, the second one around 6-7 weeks so yeah, if this is it, it will be a huge step for us.

I dreamt that i’ve lost the baby. The fact that i am feverish, battling with persistent dry cough (i was expecting i’d expelled something from my body with every cough), and flu really didn’t help me staying positive.

I dreamt i lost the baby before too. I just hope this time it didn’t come true.

 

Another test

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people.” [2:286]

And We charge no soul except [with that within] its capacity, and with Us is a record which speaks with truth; and they will not be wronged. [23:62]

It is You we worship and You we ask for help [1:5]

 

Instagram Diarrhea

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finally decided to give myself the bug though i cheated, since all these photos were taken using my D60. hehe.

Downtown Calgary, March 2011

Marina Mall, March 2012, Abu Dhabi

Farewell Lunch, Calgary, March 2011

my super-intelligent and talented colleagues. 85% of them (11/13) have MSc and Ph.Ds. except me who only has a lowly BEng T_T

Lake Louise, Banff, March 2011 – 2nd take

 

“Be”

She said, “My Lord, how will I have a child when no man has touched me?” [The angel] said, “Such is Allah ; He creates what He wills. When He decrees a matter, He only says to it, ‘Be,’ and it is. [3:47]

His command is only when He intends a thing that He says to it, “Be,” and it is. [36:82]

Subhanallah. Allahu Akbar.

 

being respectful

And do not insult those they invoke other than Allah , lest they insult Allah in enmity without knowledge. Thus We have made pleasing to every community their deeds. Then to their Lord is their return, and He will inform them about what they used to do

[Al-'An'am, 108]